Former President Bill Clinton has finally told his side of the story about his affair with his former intern Monica Lewinsky.
In the new documentary “Hillary” that is set to premiere on Hulu he likens being the president to being a boxer in a 30 round fight.
“You feel like you’re staggering around, you’ve been in a 15 round prize fight that was extended to 30 rounds and here’s something that will take your mind off it for a while, that’s what happens,” he said.
“Everybody’s life has pressures and disappointments, terrors, fears of whatever,” the former president said as a way to “manage my anxieties for years.”
“Nobody thinks they’re taking a risk he said in the documentary that will be available to stream on Friday. “That’s not why we do stupid things.”
In the documentary, which was first shared at the Sundance Film Festival in January, that he is a “totally different person” than he was during the affair.
‘Maybe it’s just getting older but I hope it was also going through a lot of this,” he said as a way of explaining what he did.
“But whatever, what I did was bad but it wasn’t like – how can I think about the most stupid thing I could and do it,” he said “It’s not a defense, it’s an explanation. I feel awful.”
He explained how he first told his wife about what he had done.
“I went and sat on the bed and talked to her. I told her exactly what happened, when it happened. I said I feel terrible about it,” he said.
“We’ve been through quite a bit in the last few years. I said I have no defense, it’s inexcusable what I did,” he said.
Hillary said that she was “devastated” when her husband came to her and admitted that he had an affair with the young intern.
“I could not believe it. I was so personally just hurt and I can’t believe this, I can’t believe you lied,” he former first lady said in the four hour documentary.
She said that the marriage counselling they had to do after she learned of the affair consisted of “painful, painful discussions.”
The former president said that the counselling sessions “one of the hardest things I’ve ever had to do but it was necessary.”
“She deserved it, Chelsea deserved it and I needed it,” he said. “I feel terrible about the fact that Monica Lewinsky’s life was defined by it, unfairly I think.”
Carmine Sabia Jr. is the Editor-At-Large for sabiareport.com and a syndicated columnist for The Federalist Papers, Illicit Info and others covering political news and current events.